smile!

I found that most of the time i blogged also very emo...

maybe i should appreciate that i've so much thing to let me emo.

that's made me grow up from childish become mature..

So today finally i know a secret i get know long time ago.

just i never admit that as a truth since no one admit it.

and very finally the one admitted today.haha..

actually i still quite sad until now.

but i know i should forgive and forgot.

you know,the second part is the most difficult part..

i can't stop myself to keep imagine the part that i imagined.

i am so so so hard feeling..

what should i do beside keep smile to her and tell her dun cry

i know she is very sad too,so i should support her as well!

i must be strong!!

Seriously i don't know what the hack should i do.

when i get know the truth i know that if i continue with her i will be baring a great pressure from my heart

just like what i said,forgive is the most difficult part!

i need to be strong,i must be strong,i WANT TO BE STRONG.

you can't imagine how many tear that i drop in this moment.

i think i would never forgot today until my heart stop beating.

my father used to tell me when i'm still young

all the pain,left to the man

all the tears,keep inside your heart.

i know how pain is it,i could'nt let her know.

i will be responsible to take over all the pain.

you just be happy all the time and smile and say ILY to me everyday.

that's enough.=)

GPW I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...TT

broken titanic.

I thought if i manage to keep my relationship forever there is no problems at all

but everything never follow my mind,the problem keep occur in our relation,

i never thought i will be so care about how others people says about me.i mean it.

why are they so mean when they know i so care about it!

why i am so upset to a thing i've already habit for a year!

Dafuq.....

What is the reason i ask you to tell your family that there is a one exist in this fucking world.

i am here!i am your boyfriend!

but the name you called boyfriend.

in the shopping mall,we are good friend.

in your house, we are NOT friend.

yes i am freaking care about it so what!

it show that i serious for this relationship is'nt it?

at least let me bring you out can or not?

everytime we hang out we must hide there hide here.

there is your mum's friend,that is your dad's friends.

those is your brother's buddy,your sister is at the same shopping mall.

alright i hide hide hide hide hide HIDE HIDE HIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i admit that there is thousand times i choose to let go,choose to break up.

but somehow i still love you.

somehow you've already part of my life.

i love you and i mean it.

but why this is so unfair to me!

why should i bare everything and hide like a theif?

am i killed you dad last life?am i killed your whole family pass life?

i am so mad.

my friend said i am insane,i have a girlfriend that could never hang out with me even we already together for three years!

yeah i am insane,i don't know why i have to trust your 'give me sometimes'

please baby you never tried to tell them and you telled me they are going to reject and unsupport our relation

alright eventhough they don't like me,they don't like you had a relationship in this early 18years old day.

but what can they do?please!you are 18 not 8 years old!!

oh god tell me what can i do?

oh god please save my soul....

i just wish that i can hold your hand and go for a movie

even 1 hour for a lunch.

but the only answer i possible get:

har...不能wor.

不是很能wor.

那里能？

may i use the answer when you ask me to go out for walk?

oh there is no a chance cause you wish that i dun ask you date so you wont date me.