smile!

I found that most of the time i blogged also very emo...

maybe i should appreciate that i've so much thing to let me emo.

that's made me grow up from childish become mature..

So today finally i know a secret i get know long time ago.

just i never admit that as a truth since no one admit it.

and very finally the one admitted today.haha..

actually i still quite sad until now.

but i know i should forgive and forgot.

you know,the second part is the most difficult part..

i can't stop myself to keep imagine the part that i imagined.

i am so so so hard feeling..

what should i do beside keep smile to her and tell her dun cry

i know she is very sad too,so i should support her as well!

i must be strong!!

Seriously i don't know what the hack should i do.

when i get know the truth i know that if i continue with her i will be baring a great pressure from my heart

just like what i said,forgive is the most difficult part!

i need to be strong,i must be strong,i WANT TO BE STRONG.

you can't imagine how many tear that i drop in this moment.

i think i would never forgot today until my heart stop beating.

my father used to tell me when i'm still young

all the pain,left to the man

all the tears,keep inside your heart.

i know how pain is it,i could'nt let her know.

i will be responsible to take over all the pain.

you just be happy all the time and smile and say ILY to me everyday.

that's enough.=)

GPW I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...TT

broken titanic.

I thought if i manage to keep my relationship forever there is no problems at all

but everything never follow my mind,the problem keep occur in our relation,

i never thought i will be so care about how others people says about me.i mean it.

why are they so mean when they know i so care about it!

why i am so upset to a thing i've already habit for a year!

Dafuq.....

What is the reason i ask you to tell your family that there is a one exist in this fucking world.

i am here!i am your boyfriend!

but the name you called boyfriend.

in the shopping mall,we are good friend.

in your house, we are NOT friend.

yes i am freaking care about it so what!

it show that i serious for this relationship is'nt it?

at least let me bring you out can or not?

everytime we hang out we must hide there hide here.

there is your mum's friend,that is your dad's friends.

those is your brother's buddy,your sister is at the same shopping mall.

alright i hide hide hide hide hide HIDE HIDE HIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i admit that there is thousand times i choose to let go,choose to break up.

but somehow i still love you.

somehow you've already part of my life.

i love you and i mean it.

but why this is so unfair to me!

why should i bare everything and hide like a theif?

am i killed you dad last life?am i killed your whole family pass life?

i am so mad.

my friend said i am insane,i have a girlfriend that could never hang out with me even we already together for three years!

yeah i am insane,i don't know why i have to trust your 'give me sometimes'

please baby you never tried to tell them and you telled me they are going to reject and unsupport our relation

alright eventhough they don't like me,they don't like you had a relationship in this early 18years old day.

but what can they do?please!you are 18 not 8 years old!!

oh god tell me what can i do?

oh god please save my soul....

i just wish that i can hold your hand and go for a movie

even 1 hour for a lunch.

but the only answer i possible get:

har...不能wor.

不是很能wor.

那里能？

may i use the answer when you ask me to go out for walk?

oh there is no a chance cause you wish that i dun ask you date so you wont date me.

everyone with couple,everyone double.

everyone with couple,everyone double

i with couple,i must be single.

i have no choice,in my whole life.

love,education,jobs,times anything.

i can even make a decision,X'mas,i can even hang out with my couple.

what really couple mean to me??

does it really happening to me?

cant even a outing?

i'm going to national service,for 3 month,cant see my couple anymore.

but how can i?cant hang out before my national service?

even once?how long should i wait.

i understand she is on pressure too,i love her truly,but how?

i had to understand her,support her,trust her.

i did,i pay alot she does too.

i still need to wait,for a long period,she may feel i'm cant even understand her.

but did her really come to think abt me?how i feel?

keep dissapointing me,i dun mind.

please don't promise me anything end with an aeroplane.

how i will feel??no next time.

i dun really wan to angry but i need to knw,what i should believe to.

give me something please,god please help me.tell me what should i do.

imma tired,everything.

just tell me,why i should and how long i should.

when it will end?

merry X'mas.=]

happy new year.i loves you.=']

她

well,you can know our relationship through the pictures!

she is my girl.=)

such a pretty and cute girl ever.< 3

although i am not prefect but she still loving me.

so nice so good.=DD

love can change a person to bad or to best.

he/she will be the best in her/his eyes.

she is perfect i am no doubt to this,no one can deny it.

everyone says we are so match to each other.

how you think??=Phahhahahahahahahahaahahahaha so funny this photo.==

actually finding someone to love you and be a listener is good.

it helps and you really need the thing called 'relation' so much.

== ini orang ar..

<3

as a boyfriend,i willing to try my best to treat her in my ways

no matter how the ppl say,how they comment abt us,i will not change my mind.

sometimes,just close my eyes,she will be in my mind anytimes.

no doubt,i may not in age to mature love.

but i had my way.=)

you have no the qualification to stop us.

i am so happy abt my girl are popular but please stop doing anything to be the third person.

thanks.=)

my dear,i am so sorry to make you feel bad this few day

i know you are trying hard too,i am so sorry.

i wont say that anymore okay?no more sorry no more argue no more crying.

promise?i do.=)

ILYTMSMMMMMMM

pointless.

my life are sucks,i don't even know what the fuck i am doing everyday.

what the fuck!!

i am totally emotional,i had tried to let everyone happy

so i used to be a man who say 1 type and do 1 type.

sorry if i really did that to you.i really never meant to hurt you.

what is my target?what is my point?

i want to be rich!so my exceed thinking were not needed!

if i am rich,i hope i can live in a castle and invite all my friend come to my house and have a party.

if i am rich i hope i can employee all my friend and they no need work just accompany me anytime.

if,yeah,IF!

i hate my IF,i hate my imagination.i hate myself,everything about me.

i hate my temper,it can come up anytime any reason.

am i crazy?i can get angry while i bath my brother.

i can also get angry while i am talking with my girl.

without any reason.

i hate my attitude,especially to study.

i am lazy,but i cant change my attitude,maybe i am lazy to change it..

i am sucks.

sorry i am emotional.==

something different....

it's weekend,my blog are not famous at all,but i'm glad on it.

yeah i'm in love,i never know that i will fall in love with her again..=D

but..something different,she treat me..sometimes really cold.

sometimes are sweet.

when we meet..she is sweet.but she really know me well.XD

in everything,we are in the same tone.whee~~

i love her.but..how about she?

i don't know,sometimes she really like to talk with me but sometimes..

she treat me really cold..

like now,she dint ans my call and dint reply my massage.

all can i do is wait patiently..

i don't want to force her and don't want to give her pressure...

but it really make me feel so unsafely,cause she still have a chaser,that who really love her.

he gave me a big pressure..

you know,she is really pretty and anorable.<3

how sweet when she smile.luckily i have,hope this is not only a dream..

and it can stay forever..=D

记得爱

听这首歌时很感触==

记得爱

天空不断下着无声的雪
而我只有思念
勉强能温暖黑夜
拥抱离我已经千山万水
每个男人都有
说不出的心碎
我还爱着一个人　但愿
回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉
证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退　
记得爱　所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开
伸出手　继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱
记得爱 是我给过的答案
就不再　考虑应该不应该
一滴泪　落进无边无际的大海
至少我们都活得没有遗憾
只要记得爱就无所谓孤单

=)

tired.

Today i went to IDI.listen the undang course with ANGIE and SHENGQI.

wake up in 7 morning but i fall slept at 5 midnight.quite tired and lack of sleep.

as everyone know,the course is

HYPER!!EXTREAMLY!!CRAZILY!!Boring.

so i keep talk with angie and shengqi to make sure i wont fall sleep during the course.

When the teacher annouce first break i was feel like:FINALLY!!

A small break is abt 15 min and i am going inside to boring again..==

den second break is for lunch,the nasi kandar in there was very weird.

not taste good but expensive.

den we three walk walk and late into the class(purposely 1)

after that i start playing sudoku inside the classroom..

and finally its 3.30 noon and we are free from the BORING course.

we walk out from the class and stand there talking

waiting aunty to fetch us..

suddenly we saw alot ppl from our school

yanni,lichi,hooi ling and she.==

so regret i give her a LJ face but just think abt what she does i feel so ANGRY.==

finally the aunty come to fetch us and den we three started chat inside the red kancil.

very cute kancil.

we talk some topic about colour.

something very funny lar..

talk talk laugh laugh.

den finally reach home and go out for dinner liao.

and now reach home with a exhausted body.

but i hope i can join angie them in da wei wang.=(

没那么简单

每个人都在分手之后开始寻找理由

不停地问为什么，怎么了

换来的不就是第二次的伤害吗？

我们还是中学生，对某些事情难免很不成熟

而我要说的是爱情。

其实爱情不是连续剧那种，你爱我，我爱你，结束，过着幸福快乐的生活。

拜托，你已经长大了，好心你就不要活在那种灰姑娘的童话故事里了

爱一个人你要考虑很多很多的因素

好比说，家庭

爱情不单单是两个人的事情，还要顾虑到家人会不会接受他，喜不喜欢他。

如果你为了一个爱情，放弃一个养你供你的家，而你认为很伟大，对不起，你错了

你是世界上最笨的人，俗话说得好‘夫妻本是同林鸟，大难领头各自飞’

可是家人却永远不会弃你而不顾。

你可以选择伴侣，却不能选择家人。

再来，金钱

我们还是个没有收入，只靠着父母养的学生，有什么能力去照顾别人

去到外面，男生为了展示风度，得请吃得付钱，那钱从哪来？

女生为了让自己的男友自豪，下重本买新衣，那钱又从哪来？

每天这样出去，父母也都吃不消，还没算电话费

如今的生活水平那么高，这个又出新的，那个又有别的

时代在进步，科技在进步，那么你父母的薪水有进步吗？

再说，时间

我们是学生，没有多余的时间去培养所谓的感情

如今的学业如此的繁重，我们连准备自己的功课，成绩都来不及了

更何况还要培养感情。

还有，思想

我们的思想多不成熟，如果一不小心，安全措施没做好

怀孕了，谁负责？

而如果那激情不再，那感情何来？

撇开这些

当你决定和一个人展开一段关系时，你能确定你可以给这个人幸福吗？

你可以保证，你会和他在一起很久、很久吗？

由于我们的思想不够成熟，或许一开始是有那种念头

可是，未必有那种激情，到时，你又要用什么来维持这段爱情？

话是这么说没错，但又有谁能够逃离爱情呢。

愿主保佑你..=D

Peneng 'trip'

Last friday i went to peneng with my small aunt and my family.

(only me,mum and dad only)

because my brother needs to work and my sister had a competition in strait quay

and she won a silver medal in junior category.=DD

well,it is a 'TRIP' for me.

first day i reach there,after check in to gurney hotel and st8 move to gurney plaza

my aunt want to shopping as she live in langkawi

she treat me eat 笼的传人..=PP

this is the very first time i eat this highclass food.

i never eat this before.haha..

after that,we shopping at the gurney plaza..

and she treat us dinner at sakae sushi again,hahah!!

after dinner,i get to H and recieve a bad news.==

whatever,i am not going to let my family know that.hehe..

after that,happened something very special in this trip

because my small aunt 中风 when 2009

and she need alot maid to take care of her..

so she bring 3 kakaks follow to our trips!!

then at night,2 of them run away.==

idk where can they run to as we stay at peneng you know==

and we realise that when second day morning.==

second day,my mum found that they run away and i 不小心 go check tiok the 冰箱

they took all the soft drink==

den my small aunt say:hey that is very expensive!ah rong you walk to gurney buy back.==

omg.==very very very far!

buy i very guai de,i walk go==

den after i came back,my cousin come find us from butterworth

den we go to the swimming pool play!=P

i play at the kids pool,haha..

there got slide and basketball court and futsal court and volleyball court and alot!!

very siok jiu diu liao.==

and my hotel de view is face the sea!very very nice,too bad i dint have camera to take it.

jiayous!

无助。

What can i help them?

all my fren,old fren,new fren.

meet the love's problem

and i can't even help anyone of them,even counsel them.

i dunnoe why i feel so sorry when i cant help them at all.

i feel suffer when i see my fren suffer from this..

what can i help them?!!

feel so sorry to them=(

Sometime,放手也许比痴心绝对来得好

Sometime,看开一点也许世界会更美好

Sometime,寻找新的生活新的开始也好，只要，自己要懂得面对事情的结果

我们要用一辈子去开心=D

无论你面对什么问题，笑一笑，没什么大不了。

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

WTF.=)

yea,very WTF!(welcome to facebook)==

i waste my time whole day,now aldy the fifth day of holidays.

but i dunnoe whatthefuck i am doing!

@wake up at 1.00pm

@lunch

@tv,facebook.

@dinner

@tv,facebook,blogging

@sleep at 2 or 3 midnight.

it is a cycle!!==

i totally dunnoe what am i doing.WTF.

my buddy meet problem,a very serious problem.

serious until i also dunnoe how can i help him.

no matter which side i help,it will hurt another side.

maybe i should take me out of the situation.

but i dunnoe how to,both of them ask me to help.

beg me to do thing.

how can i make them come out from this suffer situation?

i feel sad too when c them suffer in it,three of them..

GOD BLESS THEM..

Well,nothing change in my life.

yet,if you really dun like to talk with me,juz tell me.

I WILL NEVER TALK WITH YOU ANYMORE.

i hate ppl dunwan reply me,it make me feel you're not respect me.

F la!(F=friday.)==

the last day of may.==

Yeah,alot of ppl is using this topic to become their topic.

so,me too.=)

maybe i should learn some ppl to live happily and write some happy things on blog.

yesh,i must learn it.

so let's start=P

我没有很好的英文所以我用华语。

其实我很不喜欢5月，尤其是今年的。

可是我又不知道怎样说出我的感受==

这个5月我剪了一个很有勇气的头。哈哈！！

放假了，开始堕落不知道自己每天要做什么

每天一醒来就要想今天要做什么

OMG!明天又要做什么？

每天除了on9 就是on9==

电话又坏，sienz lo..

我要下决心变白了！

减少打篮球，我可以做到的.==

慢慢...慢慢...

should start by this photo!current class photo!like so much.=))

boy's photo.all also showing pattern!

my hair.=)

gone liao lo..

突然间觉得很累..

有些事真的知道了会伤害自己，可是自己的好奇心又偏偏害自己去知道这件事。

明明已经知道答案就是这样，还要折磨自己

最近开始了解你们不是那么的简单

我们是没有可能的，我们已经没有可能了。

一直都跟自己说看开点就好

一直都跟自己说不是早就知道了吗

一直都跟自己说忘记吧。

是我的问题吗？

like this leh.=)pretty winnie=PP

like this photo very much!but now i botak liao.=)

i should feel happy!

gonna free=))

botak jiayou!

May 20.

May 20,i plan to tell someone 520 but..
i realise i dint have anyone to tell.=)
no one could understand my feeling.
how if i go back early?i wont saw them together.I WONT!
now?what about now?i saw!

i have been avoid it for 1 month,i hide and hide and hide.
i dunwan to see that!but what can i say after i saw that?
they are together!but then,after i cool down myself.
i realise,who am i?i dint have the qualification to angry even sad.
HAHAHA.well.i really should wish them...
happy may 20 day!happy goodbye day.

i told myself to leave,but my heart still there.
it dunwan come back.
but now i saw it,maybe this is the way god tell me to let go..
this is the way to forgot,this is the way to really....leave her.

五月二十日。
我看到了他们，他们在一起。
对不起，我还是避开了你的眼睛，我用书包遮住我的脸。
虽然遮得很失败，但至少我看不到你的脸有多开心。
虽然我很不开心，虽然....
你开心就好啦，虽然很不甘愿。
你们牵手了...我还能说什么。

你....快乐吗？

加油botak!!=)

haha~~

I'm gonna FREE!!

woooohOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

i am so high as the exam going to finish liao!

everyone get ready for ur holidays!!

HAHAHAHA!!

holiday i wan to go listen undang.

i wan play badminton.

i wan go basketball traning.

i wan play crazily.

i wan cry for my result.

i wan worry about parents days.

i wan worry about SPM!==

OH MY GOSHHHH!!!

SPM i really feel sorry to you.

you are just right the corner but i no really care about you.

now?too late lar....

but i sure will really study for you.=)

jiayous jiayous!!

每次都是酱。

everytime i did the same thing.

everytime i promise myself to let it go and put it down,i will automatically view your blog

When i found that you din't update it.

i'll felt so sad.WHY?don't ask me.

i miss you alot,but i think it is the time to let you pass by,from my life.

you may angry me,i will hate myself too.

LOVE is unreasonable.

DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH.

hahahahaha!!!

i am not born to love you,but i cannot control myself to miss you.

爱情没有对与错，没有合不合适，只有珍不珍惜

没有爱错，只有爱过。

其实，只要你越装得若无其事，我就越难过。

sometime i really don't know do you know i am following your BLOG?

I am asking myself,that word really refering me?HAHA..==

gou le.jiayou!=)

分手不是世界末日。

真的如果你认为世界上有人值得让你哭了又哭。

每天晚上睡不着觉，那你就继续堕落。

你认为如果你每天晚上不睡觉，他就会回来吗？

我告诉你，不。

为什么你不要接受事实呢？

为什么你要弄到自己人不像人，鬼不像鬼。

很开心吗？

想象了，又有用吗？

伤心到像狗酱，相信我，不好听一句，他睬你都傻。

如果他真的想要跟你分手，将你有什么好伤心的

睡醒料就算料。

就当发了一场梦，该醒的就该醒。

该忘的就该忘。

如果你认为你的堕落，可以让自己跟加舒服，

那你就继续堕落。

如果你认为你的堕落，可以让你的朋友好过

那你就继续堕落。

如果你认为你的堕落，可以让他回来，

那你就继续堕落。

真的，郑少荣，他们要在一起，就让他们在一起。=)

不要堕落下去料。

加油。

讲这些话不是落井下石，是要你懂接受现实

如果你看了觉得很不爽我，那就算了，当我多管闲事，我堕落好吗？==

A brand new day!!

Broke up.
please la everyone,stop blaming on me..
trust me,i am not the happiest ppl,i also very tired.
i am sad after i made this decision okay?
i am really tired,alot of thing that u all dunnoe,so please dun act gao gao den started blame me.
never and ever challange my temper,u will regret.
i will make u like the ant on the hot pot!i tell u.==

what should i say after break?
i found back hers thing and started using it.
beside this,should i give back the pencil box and tupperware that she gave to me?
i dunnoe what can i do with them,but then i am still using the pencil box that she gave to me la...
haiz...very tired la..

long time dint write blog liao...
write liao also no ppl wan to view.
whatever..buaiss.=)

H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-!

IT'S HOLIDAY!!went hatyai for this holiday,with 6 family.==
well so lazy to type.
let picture explain everything,but i lazy upload lot pic,so only abit here.==